No, I’m not talking about that (besides, who could compare with this Seinfeld episode?!).
I’m talking about when we fake emotions with our kids. Let’s face it, sometimes we’re tired – of the whining, the same questions over and over, pretending it’s fun to act out a Sofia movie or book scene for the eleventh time that day, or building the same thing out of blocks yet again just to have it knocked over.
It’s exhausting to be enthusiastic every minute your children are awake … yet we don’t want them to think we’re not interested in what they’re doing … don’t care … or don’t love them enough to pay attention.
It’s a fine, tired line, right? So what do I do? I fake it.
Yep, I summon up all my false emotion and energy and fake enthusiasm some days. Sometimes it’s just a moment here or there to get through, say, reading a Dora the Explorer book (adios, Dora!!). Sometimes I’m so incredibly annoyed I need to take a deep breath, smile wide, and sugar coat my voice for a false-happy response.
Other times a whole day needs some serious faking. Else I might slip into a scary yelling monster mama. Yikes.
I guess this is my way of controlling my emotions.
But I wonder … do my kids notice?
I’m sure Baby doesn’t. But Toddler might. Can she tell the difference between my honestly happy voice and my I’m-trying-not-elevate-my-voice-into-a-scream voice? Boy, I try realllly hard to make them sound the same. Same decibels, not too high-pitched on the fake side, not too sappy when I’m honestly happy.
Please tell me I’m not the only mom to fake it sometimes. Please? And if you do, do you think your kids notice too?