I had every intention of writing this as a 100% positive post. Toddler is in school and loves it, we’ve been on time for every day the last four weeks, I’ve gotten a nice break while she’s gone and Baby does her morning nap, and unicorns are literally prancing around the living room with me.
NOPE.
This week I just want to scream every f*&^ing obscenity I can. Right now Baby is crying through the monitor – she didn’t nap on Monday morning and she’s not napping now – and we were a few minutes late this morning thanks to post-blizzard slow roads (though we were actually the first there in her class, so still a win for me???), and …
… well, I’m sort of fearing that this briefly blissful chunk of time is now turning into a twice-a-week pain in the ass.
Don’t get me wrong: Toddler loves her class and her teacher. Every day she asks if it’s a school day. We waited until we were sure she was ready for school – to leave us for a few hours and play well with others her age and go pee by herself and want to learn about new things – and even though I was a bit nervous for her to start, this is absolutely the right time for her to start pre-preschool.
But let’s be honest: getting one kid to school on time in the morning is tough, and having a baby in the same house (and managing her morning nursing, breakfast, poopy diaper, and napping schedule) makes it feel like I’m a circus ringleader surrounded by elephants running amok. It really tests the limits of my patience and my ability to goad Toddler nicely without straight up yelling in her face.
(And BOY am I tempted when she daydreams over her Cheerios – clock’s a-tickin’ – and just stands there making faces in the mirror instead of washing her hands – holy sh&^ we are gonna be laaaate!)
And then trying to sing and talk to Baby on the 10-minute car ride home so she doesn’t nap in her carseat and saves up all her tireds for her crib … oy, it is stressful. I mean, not like fighting in Syria stressful, but full-on parent mode stressful.
And then what if this is the end of Baby’s morning nap and she’s ready to do just one nap after lunch??? BOOM! There went our schedule!
I would say all this is worth it for the rare 1.5h of free time I get twice a week, but now I can’t even say that.
I’m a little frustrated/pissed off/annoyed right now … forgive me.
But you know what it is worth? Toddler loving her school! Yes, that is really worth its weight in soggy Cheerios. Listening to her recite bits of the Pledge of Allegiance, sing a line from This Land is Our Land or their morning song, meet me with a big smile and hug at 11:30am, or use a word I know she learned in school … that’s really awesome! I loved school when I was growing up and looked forward to it every day, and it seems like she is so far, too – a sweet memory indeed!
Wow!! I can definitely sympathize with all this. Some days I want to pull my hair out. Other days I want to hide under the covers all day. Then I remember I am the adult and the mother😳😊. Best wishes on getting a little time for you!
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Yeah, we are the adults … ugh. Ugh! Every day, too! There’s never a reprieve, can you believe it?! I think the next time I feel like this, I’ll remind myself that I’m the adult and the mother – good mantra, thanks!!!
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I know I have to constant remind myself and find the urge not to “adult” 😬
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Oh my! I totally feel you! Most days are hectic and I have to talk to myself to keep from yelling at the kids (I almost/sometimes succeed). The baby’s nap was absolute crap for two months because in the hour it would take me to drive the 4 year old and toddler to daycare, he would only fall asleep in the last 15 minutes and then not want to sleep once we arrived home. But he’s kinda gotten in the groove of things now and I actually have a life again (though because I wrote it he’s probably going to not nap this afternoon). Anyway, I guess what I’m saying is that it’ll get better. And it IS pretty wonderful that the toddler is loving school. Yay!
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Oh, I needed that pep talk – thank you!! That’s exactly the situation…. So I shouldn’t give up hope yet…! 🙂 At least there’s a silver lining that she enjoys school so much. I hear so many stories from my mom friends of their kids crying on the way to school, and thank God that’s not my daughter!! It’d make me cry, too!
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You’re welcome! Now can you please send those prancing unicorns my way?
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I Am glad you are picking up a little Yiddish
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Haha, I was saying “oy” before Husband, lol. And schmutz and schvitz. Yiddish has some great words!!
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Oh blimey, you do have your hands full! Its great that your toddler is adjusting to school life well, thats got to be a relief. I hope things get better for you soon xx
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Thank you! Silver lining, right? It’s hard to FINALLY get a little break for three weeks, and then it’s ripped away, lol. let’s hope this is temporary…. 🙂
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Fingers and toes crossed for you xx
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I remember almost crying with angst trying to get two kids to ballet classes and thinking of dumping them off the road while they argued over everything, but sobered up with the thought that some day they wouldn’t be needing me for anything. It’s so hard, in the moment, to see clearly, but it’s all worth it in the end..wait, who said that? You have to just live long enough for it to be funny!
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I totally believe this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Some days I see why people only have one kid for that very reason – arguing – and I”m not even there yet with our girls!
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Nothing like a kid loving school and that makes a mother happier! 😊
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I can imagine with two my one is a handful. I have been thinking about putting my daughter in a half day program. I think she is ready and even though I am sure I will cry when she starts school, it will be a welcomed break for me.
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If you think she’s ready, go for it! If she has a good time at school, it makes it so easy to let them go – and you’ll enjoy the time at home! Plus, a half day goes by REALLY quickly!!!
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Feeling you. Keep trucking you can do it.
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Thanks! 🙂 And thanks for stopping by!
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